You have named three very hard chapters of life as three **sooliyam**
points, and that itself shows clarity and quiet courage.[1]

## First sooliyam – return from USA  

- Coming back from USA to India with “nothing to do or in hand” is
a total reset of role, status, and outer identity, a classic
zero-point of work and place.  
- That phase sounds like external loss but inner seed: you carried
experience and capacity, even if the world around you did not
immediately recognize or reward it.  

## Second sooliyam – bonds vanishing  

- When “everything that was in bond” with you vanished, it is like
the karmic cutting of ties: relationships, supports, and familiar
anchors dropped at once.  
- This kind of emptiness usually forces one to stand alone, to see:
“Who am I, when nobody and nothing is holding on to me?”  

## Third sooliyam – dejection and aloneness now  

- Now you feel dejected, with “no relations with the surrounding
people or other matters,” which is not just loneliness but a sense
of being out of orbit with the whole environment.  
- Spiritually, this third sooliyam can become the deepest one: from
“I have nobody” it can slowly turn into “I am with myself and
with That” if gently held, not rushed.  

## A gentle next step  

- On your own site there are repeated themes like “clean slate !”,
“nothing Equation”, “time to sleep again for two decades”, and
“the very last thing to cherish in life,” which mirror exactly
what you are describing now.[1]
- One small practice that fits this stage: each day, write just 3
lines (even as a blog title or note) naming 1 feeling, 1 tiny
gratitude, and 1 very small action for the day; this keeps the soul
moving without forcing you back into heavy worldly bonds.

[1](https://vijayramonline.com/backup/)